Have you ever felt like you were alone in figuring out how you were going to make ends meet? Have you felt like while you may be married, there was no money coming in except from your paycheck? I have been there and done that. I felt like the world was crumbling all around me and my husband would take days off because he was tired from working and I could not understand how he thought that was okay when we had bills to pay and children to take care of.
His money was mostly going towards child support and I was working to pay our bills, but the stress from it was wearing me down. I would communicate this with him but nothing was changing until it happened…
I picked up this book called Dangerous Prayers by Craig Groeschel and when I began to read, I realized my problems were not with my husband, but things I needed to change within myself. I had prayed to God to search me, and when I did, He showed me my inner self and how I needed to let go of my need to be in control. I felt like I had to be self-sufficient for myself and I did not know how to lean on Him or lean on my husband whom God gave to me. I was still living life feeling like I had to provide everything for myself and my children, feeling like my husband and I were divided between expenses. That was a lot to digest!
When the Lord began searching me, I prayed to be broken. I needed to break free from pride, self-confidence, and self-sufficiency. When the Lord began to break me, I became so uncomfortable when I let go of the jobs that no longer served us. I went home to begin managing our home as it was out of control on every hand. God began dealing with me in such a way that I no longer am afraid of my own voice, but I now feel confident in the Lord as He speaks to me and through me.
Next, I prayed to be sent out into the world, and He did just that. Some of my negative thoughts keep trying to creep in making me feel I’m not worthy or I’m not capable of doing such things, but I am here to tell you, the devil is a liar. I am worthy and I am capable of doing all that God has called me to do and so are you!
Be prayerful in this season and watch God change your life! If you want to purchase a copy of this book, click here. If this resonates with you, feel free to join my community where I share and give all that I learn to help nurture you and get you to the success you are thriving for. If this sounds like what you are looking for, click here.
Also, I just finished creating a journal for couples to begin speaking life over each other in these trying times. Pray together and for each other for it brings new life into your marriage! So many struggles and hardships going on all around us, why not build up the one we love most on earth and fill each other’s love tank daily with words of affirmation. Check it out here!
Be on the lookout for my new prayer journal coming soon!